The End of an Era
I know Ryan said the last post would be the final one for a while, but I wanted to share a few things following his bell ringing on Monday. First, we are both overwhelmed by the love and support we have received this week and for the past two and a half years since his diagnosis. I do not have anything sweet to say about cancer. The journey has been hellish at times, and we would not have made it through without the help of friends and family.
Second, while we are very excited and grateful for the treatment coming to a successful end, we are also more anxious than we have been in a while. Pretty sure that's a trauma response... feeling scared to celebrate too much lest the universe decides to put us back in our place and make something bad happen again. I keep reminding myself that even if something bad does happen (which, let's face it, life is full of ups and downs and there's no way around that), I would be really upset with myself if I had wasted the good times giving into fear. Ryan and I were reflecting on this whole experience this week, and I told him that in my book, every single day will be a celebration from here on out. Everything we do will be a chance to lean into joy, be present and grateful.
To sum things up, this experience has changed our lives forever, but we're ready to move on. Thank you to everyone who joined us (in person and virtually) to mark this milestone. It truly means the world. And if you couldn't make the Zoom, see the photos and videos below. Here's to many more celebrations to come!